in progress.

The winter layers have let you hide so well
But summer's on its way its calling you out
masked thoughts of what raw really means
you binge to fill in the gaps of your gaping mouth


i was losing all my friends once
losing them all to an empty bottle and glass
is it in you now
to tell me that you are so much better
with your concrete heart and cataract eyes


who threw the charcoaled brick
that shattered all of your plans?
silhouettes perform as our existence 
and only one light from where we stand

the dust never quite settles

as if lying dormant was tactful charm

so lets play a game of hide and seek

ill turn off the sensory alarm

distance + reality

i hear you say you need a change of scene
the grass over there is much too green
seeped between the cracks, you appear so clean
but now i see exactly who you came to be
and the closet door is shuttering
its banging loose your tinted screen
tacky glue was an afterthought for your beginning
and will be the demise of your routine

well i tried and tried to compromise
excuses left me satisfied
but you were the only one lost within your lies
it was never about the ties

blue was never a good look on you
i noticed black makes you twice removed
your consistency to stare the mirror through
has lost its lust and truth
and time is an awful song of who you knew
so much left will never debut
instrumentals of lyrics you couldn't pursue
who should i make the funeral out to?

value

emptiness bellows in the halls of your arise

suddenly you see the light of an unmarked car

im fishing for the truth to your stirring interest

love was always such a play on words for you

its funny how your arousal throws me off

im trying to find motive in senseless interactions

maybe i give you way too much credit

superficial is the skin for a super ego

but how my heart stirs for you...

every breath you take is a question

like a suicidal challenge on the cliff

I am constantly teetering for your response

your actions always were a rebuttal to cause

i let heartache take the seasonal cut

androgynous; a sulking conclusion

i suppose you will never know how i valued you.  

now there's nothing left to say

i tried so hard..

so hard..

just to not throw it all away

and the rainy day parade

you threw on the side

misunderstood

i see how its hard to be a bride

tears fell from a darkened sky

reality still remains

underneath your collected lie

to misleading reasons why

so play it all to pieces

yea, and hold the blood

watch it pour all over your creases

your hands never could hold thread

to you.

I've gotta to bust you out of there somehow
my eyes don't need to see your heart's defeat
your spirit's caged with angst momentum 
i can feel your spine conforming 


distance is weighing my heart daily
an unbalanced scale needed for detail
a black bird flew to my window at night
it was a songbird grazing borders  


it's time to test the strong ones
let's see how much they will take
fate will form an opinion to consider
a conclusion if they'll make or break


so I will offer up a hand should you feel lost
strange and unprepared is the only way to come
sitting in silence gives up the ghosts in the hall
but friendship creates a selfless home alone

you missed my heart when you stabbed me in my spine
paralysis was only just a side effect to your behavior