swells

creep through the cracks
i like to linger in shadows now
darting my eyes without disturbance
sometimes I know I see too much


winter unveils impatience
the skin burrows too much truth
thick callouses heal over hearts
only to hibernate through the swells

8.26

i didn't come for a reality show
so abort the trivial lines
time uncovered many truths..
most of yours were lies


and i hate to make you the catalyst
but you never were much of a socialist
darting words like massacres
that held onto tears dismissed.

frail excuses of yourself

a lesson from a frail excuse of a blurred memory

its become a reoccurring theme

apologies in advance to a future love..

your misinterpretations are never really me

or so it may seem.

steady breaths just to reform reality

im here.. isnt this what you asked of me?

a salty composure of lucidity 

Im trying so hard to not let you know I'm alone.

your day

i sigh..
i think of all the opportunities i had with you,
to tell you that i love you...
and all of those moments i let slip passed my hands.
i think of all the memories that we made together,
the mountains that you painted me for my escape.


every now and then i see someone with your smile.
but they never laugh like you did.

your smell

its been days since i have thought of you

though i wish it had been years..

your memory is a constant knocking at my back door

a reminder of the past i can never shake

its a song, its a phrase

the smell of the cologne that you wore

that lingers in my memory 

its unavoidable in this town

nail

nail pick nail pick
what is there to say?
ive gotta get this hanger before i speak
rip. suck. spit.
i don't enjoy the taste of blood though i do love the pain.

paths

so here we are again
fate crossed paths in the night
id stir up a nonsense conversation
but the light ahead is on too bright

the fool

its a new start and a clean swipe

once i shake these feet from frozen ice

and add a few colours to the hype

again the fool's fondling broken dice

to you.. my soul sista

time has never been on our side

but i always find passion in you at my doubts

your heart carries a rhythm i console in

you are the best friend i could ever have.

breathless dreams always feel magnetic

but explanations rattle the purpose of interpretation

i want nothing more but to sit with you in silence

laughing at things no one would ever understand.

i love you. i wish the best for you. 

you are my female soulmate and

i will never find someone that gets me like you.




I hope that he is everything you want.
because you deserve so much more.

in progress.

The winter layers have let you hide so well
But summer's on its way its calling you out
masked thoughts of what raw really means
you binge to fill in the gaps of your gaping mouth


i was losing all my friends once
losing them all to an empty bottle and glass
is it in you now
to tell me that you are so much better
with your concrete heart and cataract eyes


who threw the charcoaled brick
that shattered all of your plans?
silhouettes perform as our existence 
and only one light from where we stand

the dust never quite settles

as if lying dormant was tactful charm

so lets play a game of hide and seek

ill turn off the sensory alarm