these are words of the last few months... please enjoy

I think its clear now.

its time for me to drastically change again.

shed some friends, some pounds, some habits. 

I am scared but determined i am ready to grow.

An empty bottle only suppresses the pain

i'm ready to step back to create a gain

so cheers to life and the feeling i tame

ill swallow the salt if it will make me sane.

...... because my heart is only a game...

if someone had told me back then

that i could no longer call you a friend 

or a year from now i couldn't say where or how you've been

after all, who really expected this to end?

The silence speaks so loud. 

its obvious its time to go.

there so much i regret to leave

but there's so much more you didn't know.

There's a subtlety in my distance

if you noticed you could stop a train wreck

but i see my answer in between the lines

there's a unresolved emotion i will run from...

to the sun...

to the shore...

to a place i have never been before..

and when i get there i'll only run more

from any excuse i had blindly stored...

one day you'll miss me  but i will be gone...sooooo very gone.